I had some plans in my youth that lacked clarity and goals that were unrealistic. Life is like being in a twister; you just hang on sometimes because there are forces so much stronger than your puny efforts at control and your landing is uncertain.
Thankfully, there is someone who cares for me that is perfectly capable of managing my existence here on the planet. He knows me intimately because He created me for this time. Our God is willing to take over if we ask Him to.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.
Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.
Directing my life is like someone trying to herd cats. I must say, however, that He is doing okay.
Give it some thought.
Gary